Let’s face it. Sometimes we don’t feel so awesome. Sometimes the negative thoughts about ourselves have spiraled so far out of control we have a hard time recognizing our positive qualities. I think moms are really hard on ourselves for numerous reasons. We just want to be good moms, but it is so arduous. We want to be as close to perfect as we can and that is just not possible. Social media inundates us with an over abundance of information that makes us feel like we will never be able to measure up. That is one reason why I took an entire month off from social media in September (that is a post for another time) to try to just step back and see how I felt without all of that extra pressure. Let’s just say it was great.
My negative self thoughts go through periods of ebb and flow. There are times when I feel great, I am satisfied with my life and what I am accomplishing. Then a month or so later the negative thoughts creep back in. Right before starting this blog I was in that down cycle and I couldn’t seem to pull myself out of it. I thought I was ready to start working at least part time after staying home for three years, so I started applying for jobs. Guess how many interviews I got. Zero. There was one job that I would’ve probably gotten an interview for, but they contacted me to let me know the hours and it just didn’t work with the time my kids would be in school. I honestly felt like a loser. Before staying at home I would usually at least get an interview. I felt lost and didn’t know what I was supposed to do at this point. I felt like I wasn’t using my talents and that I was wasting my life. The negative thoughts were consuming me and having some undesirable effects on my relationships with my kids and husband.
When I was in the midst of these feelings I had the night that changed me, which I’ve spoken about before. I was at a quarterly women’s worship event called Ember and I just had an overwhelming sense of peace. I pretty instantly came to terms with, and even embraced, staying at home. I just felt like I was doing the right thing and this was the stage of life I am supposed to be in right now. I also felt that I needed to start this blog to share my journey with deepening my faith and sharing my struggles and triumphs as a mother.
Over the past several months I have encountered so many things that remind me that I am worthy and awesome because God loves me and says I am. Whether it has been in church sermons, Sunday school class, Bible study, or even just encountering verses on Instagram, I get almost daily reminders of God’s love for me. One week in church service our pastor let us know that we don’t have to waste energy comparing ourselves to others and wishing we had a better home, body, car, etc. God made each of us to serve a certain purpose. We all have unique gifts and talents to serve him. He loves us no matter what we look like or how much money we have. I think this is so freeing if we truly believe this message.
The negative thoughts still creep in sometimes, but I try to ignore them. Sometimes I even say to myself, “You are awesome because God says you are awesome.” It may seem cheesy, but saying this to myself and knowing that I am worthy really helps me make it through the day when I am struggling and it has been a rough day with my kids.
There are many great verses we can read to help remind us of God’s love. You can also pray these verses on those hard days when nothing seems to go right. Here are a few of my favorites. You’ve probably seen some of these verses so many times they have lost their meaning, but if you really read them and think about them they are so inspiring and moving.
- Give thanks to the God of heaven, for His steadfast love endures forever. – Psalm 136:26
- God shows His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. – Romans 5:8
- Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love Him and keep His commandments, to a thousand generations. – Deuteronomy 7:9
- How precious is your unfailing love, O God! – Psalm 36:7
- But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness. – Psalm 86:15
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
– Psalm 23:1-6
- So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10
Remember, God loves you no matter what. You are awesome. No matter what you go through God is always with you, even when it doesn’t feel like it. He’s got your back.
Do you have any other verses that help you get through a rough time and help you remember God’s love? If so, feel free to share in the comments!